next to these letters a seashell  fragile as a yolk’s home  colored as the heavy comforter in my parents’ bed   the bed i took naps in with mom    matching measuring cadence     the pace of air for i hoped rhythm could be something like the winter sun   slipping low and lower making nights long and days shorter    calling for birds to leave and bears to sleep

give me an incantation like the twisting of the world  like the sliding slow snapping of constellations into place some spell against the murky ocean or foggy mountain  obscuring perfect conch obscuring double yellow for now i have no mother’s breath to guide me or heavy comforter  to hold me and i cannot remember how to fall asleep